Hundredth Day of Year Two Thousand Nineteen

Inspiration can come from anywhere - an image, a comment, something that's happened to me or someone I know. It's hard to know exactly.

- Nicholas Sparks -

Years ago, by my own standards, I was a very active blogger. I once reached a peak of creativity and I published a post once a day, almost every day of the week. I cannot afford a smart phone with Internet access like my peers back then, but I do owned a laptop and a USB broadband (Goodness, remember the USB broadband?). But then again, I can't very well lugged it around with me everywhere I went. So when I got an inspiration, I grip it tightly in my mind so I won't forget, got home and wrote it in my blog.

Those were the good days, it seems. I certainly hope that that wasn't the peak of my life and that I'm still climbing. Realising the stark comparison between the number of posts in my early years of blogging, I decided to start fresh: Build a new blog and delete the old one. Which you are reading now. But as you can see, even in the new blog, the posts were very few and far in between.

I lived a rather introverted life. I had very few friends who I hesitate to contact, just in case I bother them, so I am not really without friends I stayed home a lot, not doing much. I picked up some sewing skills, which I might share with you one of these days. But mostly I just watched TV shows these days, whether on the actual TV itself or on my phone. By living such life, my daydreams probably exceed that of an average person, so for me inspirations really can come from anywhere. Even when I was at a post office waiting for my number to be called, my head can spout a dozen of ideas to write, however ridiculous. Each and every one of my ideas, can fill at least a few pages.

With apps and websites being developed each day, in this day and age, inspirations are scattered everywhere waiting to be harvested. Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, YouTube, Instagram and many more, are abundant with raw ideas to develop.

Unfortunately, though inspirations really do can come from anywhere, the process of really executing it into something people can enjoy reading is an entirely different story.

So let's cut to the chase of the matter. I haven't been writing much lately not because I'm uninspired. It's because I'm unbelievably lazy.

And that's what made me disheartened.

Even so, don't think that I am giving up on myself. In fact, it was far from that.

I can't help but wonder though, where's the girl in me with the passion for writing. Was she upset that I pushed her out of the board room and replaced the writing team with TV shows. I hope she doesn't completely abandoned me. I want her back with a triple raise of salary.

And since we're talking about non-existent entities of imaginary corporation in our heads, I also want to call back the reading team. I only read a handful of books last year, why was that? I used to read a book a week, remember? Pull yourself together...

Anyway...

A few years ago, I had drawn up a blogging plan; with pre-picked topics, and meticulously spaced dates for posting. I didn't get to do it that year, so I moved it up to the next year. But the next year came and went, and I still did not hold up to my self-expectations. If you think the blogging plan were moved to this year, then you're so right. When I missed a few scheduled post in January, I remembered thinking, 'It's okay, it's free-trial month'. Then February came, but it was March when I finally come to my senses.

I cannot keep breaking my own promises.

It was also March when I scraped my blogging plans, compose myself and promised to return to blogging with a healthy and ready mind. Rather than following a list of topics to write in numerical order it came with, I decided to just write freely with whatever topic I want to write at the time. I will treat my return to blogging as I did (or at least tried) with everything else - stress-free.

And today is that day. Today, on the hundredth day of two thousand nineteen, I am publishing my first official post of the year. 

I'm still keeping the blogging plan. It might be useful in a few years, after another lengthy revision of course.

With that said, I'm saying goodbye for now. I'll be celebrating my return to blogging with a feast. See you in a few days.